So they say.

Do I really want this? Is this the life I want to have? I am not sure why this going on right now. But all I know is that I am so used to it I don't know how to deal with it when it's gone. A habit that I can't break. But. Not all habits are good. I'm really not sure what is happening. All happened too fast. I couldn't even imagine life without the habit now. I never expected things to be like this between us. All I knew back then that it was something. The friendship we had meant something. It was worth keeping. Until day by day, I was feeling something different. The only difference with that person and now was, both of us right now are so open to each other, I think that we talk about everything. Little things could make us laugh. Those moments are so precious I didn't want it to last. But there's a catch. And I guess there will always be one. That I am not that person. I wasn't the one that this person wished to be with. I didn't mind it at all....

I couldn't post anywhere but here I think. Come on. Give her some slack. She's just saying her opinion. Honestly. She's not doing anything to anyone. She's sharing what she knows. So just zip it, if anyone's going to say anything bad/not nice to her. She's a nice person, really. And she doesn't deserve all those negative things I am hearing and reading.

Still not sure what to blog about. But I really want to blog regularly, and not like before, that I only get to blog once in 3 months or so. I'll probably share what has been happening to me or something; this might get boring by the minute, so beware. And don't blame me if in the end you might think this is a waste of time. I gave you a warning. Good thing there was a holiday. I found time to watch movies. I watched one movie last Thursday, and one last Friday. Watched Babe I Love You with a friend in Trinoma, and watched Date Night with my best friend and her cousin in SM North. It was cool actually; haven’t had much time in resting, and enjoying others' company. Although I frequently see my best friend, it has been quite some time since we actually watched a movie together. While I was writing my blog, my mood got a little bit off, IDK why. I really have a lot of things in mind plus the fact that I am not feeling well. This is probably the effect of the heat. I am in to...

I just got home around 12:30AM. I usually watch John Lloyd movies on the first day of showing, but for some reasons, I didn't this time. Luckily, I had a very nice friend who agreed to accompany me to watch it for last full show. Both characters portrayed their roles as best as they could. Mia, and Allan, met by chance in an unexpected way, place and time. That's when things started to go in circles. Twists and turns, they had to find their way to make it a happily ever after. It may not be as epic as their last movie, One More Chance, but somehow, it did leave a mark to me. It had flaws yes, but the movie is still worth watching, and worth the price at Cinema 7. :) The movie tried to show a different John Lloyd and Bea, more mature roles, and more diversity in acting. I salute not only the main characters, but everyone who's part of the movie. They've done a job good enough to pull the movie through. There are lines really worth remembering, and scenes which I think wo...

I promise to vent it out first before getting ready to leave. Sorry. If ever you come across this post, this would sound ranting, or depressed, or simply rant. Apologies for the post in advance. This is a mixture of sadness, relief, stress, confusion, happiness and everything else in between all rolled into one. My life has always been an open secret to everyone, well, for the past 20 years that is. But ever since I started working, I felt my life completely changing into something I wasn't and I never imagined I would be. I had been secluded to other people, scared to take risks, being within my comfort zones, and just simply living day by day as it is. My life could get more boring than ever. But sometimes, I still have that spontaneity within me. I get to hang out with friends once in a while, I tend to text few friends for out of nowhere drinking sessions, 5 minute breaks, lunch-outs and the like. I feel that I was getting my life back, or I thought so. Everyone knows that my l...

I am starting to check this person's profile, not because I am interested, but because I'd like to know something. :| It's freaky! And yes, I am happy that Super Junior won. And I am freakingly proud of Kyuhyun! Yes, everdearest Kyuhyun. You are now officially on my bias list. I was having doubts, but now. It's certainly official. I love you too :) Kuddos to my first love, SS501 for having their concert in BKK. You made my day today, by letting me see that Hyun Joong, Leader Love, is I think starting to grow his hair again (keeping my fingers crossed). That Kyu keeps getting better, and more handsome everyday. Young Saeng, who sported a weird hair, during the presscon, managed to pull through his growing hair (too) and looked good with it. Jung Min, who has the best hair next to Hyun Joong, and has always that friendly aura with everyone, and anywhere. And Maknae Hyung Joon, which until now, I am still trying to figure out that something keeps me drawing to you. ...

I won't sleep until I blog this. I am not in any way drunk or whatever. I just can't not blog. I have tried my very best to be ok. And until now, I realized I haven't gotten over it, one single bit. "It's not something I am ashamed of, but it's not something that can be shared easily." -a friend TO MY FRIEND: I will always love you. You know that. I am sad and I am pissed to know I haven't done anything for you for the past years that it happened. But you're such a strong person. I wish I could have that same strength that you have. I do love you, to death and forever. You will really never know a person well enough. That's one thing I have learned. It can even be our family members, or friends. But you'll really never know them. I have learned a lot of things the hard way, and right now. I really feel I am breaking down, like what I felt last year, around April or May. I didn't know why I am blogging right now. But all I know is that I...