So they say.

Yesterday, everything was just annoying me. Everything was just wrong on so many levels and I was irritated and dead angry. I am not sure why, but ever since that call with my mom the night before, everything just ticked me off. My mom, once again, making me feel stupid and dumb, or hurting me in ways she could not imagine. Recently, everything just hurts. After that April 9 incident, everything is just painful to do, painful to talk about. April 9, 2015. Probably around 11ish, I looked back on what my life has been since March of last year. Last year, I decided to do what I thought I will never do in my lifetime – to make sex as just sex, and just sleep around. Over the past year, all I did was mask everything away, show everyone how I could carry on with my life the way I have been doing, without even stopping or without even wondering about anything. I kept everything on my own. I slept with a number of guys, more than I have slept with ever since 2006. Means, for the past 8 ye...

I usually use this blog to post about bad things I feel, so that I can release them as much as I could. But today, as bad as I can remember the lying/scheming/dishonesty that I discovered last week, the start of my Monday was really great. It is just a good feeling to talk to someone who gave you a compliment or two when you have just woken up from your sleep. It may be true or not, but the feeling it gives you is something that can keep you in a good mood all day. No expectations, just good vibes for today. Keeping my fingers crossed.