So they say.

This Is Me Finally Closing The Chapter Of Us I read this a few days ago and it clearly spoke to me. This sums up how my current relationship/friendship is with someone. I know I am not ready to let go. But I am trying to make all the excuses to myself so that I could either hold on or let go already. But who knows? Maybe the right time has come. That no matter how much you care about the person, maybe now is not the right time. Or maybe now isn't what its supposed to be. Maybe not today, maybe tomorrow, but somewhere along the way I feel it would happen. Sucks, I know. I am still in the midst of thinking about it, but let's see. Hope you enjoy reading the article as much as I did. A little sad, but I realized sometimes our realities can be sad. We just have to choose how to live with it, or die with it. Click on the link above.

I am sitting at a place that gives me quite a bit of inspiration. I found this place through friends and the buzz, and tonight, I have been working for an hour here already. Staying here just for one night lights up my mood today, given the circumstances I am in at the moment. So I have been pretty jittery abut the thought that I might be plus one, but I don't think God will allow it at this point in my life that everything is just too shady and sketchy. Anyway, it's 9:48PM, I got here around 830pm, really tired from visiting 22 households. I really tried to smile and put on a brave face, but I know there were instances my loneliness and sadness are evident. I know life has been quite shitty these days, but I try to find comfort in myself and the thought that maybe I still can do it, even if currently, almost everything is just not going my way. Today was quite okay, compared to the past weeks. Apart from my jitters about the thing, I am feeling quite okay. Breathing well, ...

If there is one thing I want to be invented at the moment, I wish there is an existing medicine for managing expectations. Once you take it, you will not have to expect anything or it will  lessen your expectations about anything or anyone so you won't get too affected or get hurt by it. Expectations can make or break people. It comes with a certain amount of faith and trust and hope all rolled into one. It can make you believe in all sorts of things, and it can distort the way you look into things. It can give you a glimpse of heaven, with the right amount of reality, but it can drag you to hell with a dozen hollow blocks on your head. Expectations are realities deformed maybe for the better, or maybe for the worse. Expecting things will be okay or things are normal sometimes mean that we expect something more, something tangible, something better or something instant.. well in fact, reality doesn't put things that way. Reality reminds us of the facts and the truth, may...