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Why can't I even say things.

I used to be talkative to everyone. I used to speak my mind to anyone, everyone. I never hesitate, I never chicken out. But at this moment, I am about to breakdown, I have been praying, and discerning all day. I spent the whole day telling myself and God every pain, sadness, and struggle I have been having, but all I can hear is the silence of God just wanting to hear me out. He didn't give me answers. But, he gave me the chance to hear myself out. This has been the saddest, since i don't know when. My heart and mind has been heavy. And if I was to be given a chance, all I want to do right now is to go somewhere quiet and alone. I don't really share much, but maybe this blog can help me pour my thoughts out of my head, and see things outside the picture. A lot of people don't know, but Val and I have been struggling for sometime. Ever since she came back home in the US, we spent very minimal time talking about things. We usually just say hi and hello's, a bit of how