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I can't get over.

I won't sleep until I blog this. I am not in any way drunk or whatever. I just can't not blog.

I have tried my very best to be ok. And until now, I realized I haven't gotten over it, one single bit.

"It's not something I am ashamed of, but it's not something that can be shared easily."
-a friend

TO MY FRIEND: I will always love you. You know that. I am sad and I am pissed to know I haven't done anything for you for the past years that it happened. But you're such a strong person. I wish I could have that same strength that you have. I do love you, to death and forever.

You will really never know a person well enough. That's one thing I have learned. It can even be our family members, or friends. But you'll really never know them. I have learned a lot of things the hard way, and right now. I really feel I am breaking down, like what I felt last year, around April or May.

I didn't know why I am blogging right now. But all I know is that I pray that things will be better as time passes by. This night was such a shocker for me. I don't even know how to sleep right now. Knowing what I have learned tonight, gave me the same feeling I felt 2 years ago. The pain, thr hurt, the anger, everything. But it's mostly the pain. I thought it was just all in the past.

I learned that I could deal with this. People may have something more than what I have with me, so I don't have to feel pity, or I don't have to tell myself its the end. I just have to live with things everyday.

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