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Ok. I am feeling weird.

I am starting to check this person's profile, not because I am interested, but because I'd like to know something. :| It's freaky!

And yes, I am happy that Super Junior won. And I am freakingly proud of Kyuhyun! Yes, everdearest Kyuhyun. You are now officially on my bias list. I was having doubts, but now. It's certainly official. I love you too :)

Kuddos to my first love, SS501 for having their concert in BKK. You made my day today, by letting me see that Hyun Joong, Leader Love, is I think starting to grow his hair again (keeping my fingers crossed). That Kyu keeps getting better, and more handsome everyday. Young Saeng, who sported a weird hair, during the presscon, managed to pull through his growing hair (too) and looked good with it. Jung Min, who has the best hair next to Hyun Joong, and has always that friendly aura with everyone, and anywhere. And Maknae Hyung Joon, which until now, I am still trying to figure out that something keeps me drawing to you.

I finished watching SHINee's Hello Baby 2 episode 4. And now I am starting to notice Taemin's jawline. Weird, but I did. And I am falling in love with Onew more and more. I can't believe until now he's scared of Yoogeun, but I felt his love for his kid. Jonghyun, who keeps trying his best to get tons of bobos from Yoogeun, and Minho, the perfect SHINee appa. :) I enjoyed this episode but I can't wait to watch the next one.

I realized I broke a promise to someone today. I'm sure that person won't mind, since I mean nothing special to that person. So no worries. But somehow I feel guilty I didn't do my promise. I'll just make it up, in time.

I spent my valentine weekend with friends since Friday. First time no valentine, first time no "date-date" on vday. But no worries. I did what I had to do, I think this would be for the best. If I survived vday today, it means I could survive more days alone. Friday night watching Valentine's Day, and then coffee until 4AM at Tomas. Saturday night, drinking session/birthday celebration with grade school friends. Sunday, wrote the whole day, and had my 1 hour me time. Cried my heart out after hearing Reset and reading that one shot. Eunhae is <3 :) I somehow my weird moments since Friday, but no worries. I hope to get over them soon. Mom's birthday on Tuesday. Have to focus on work, but somehow, still lazy. I need to step up once again at work. I need to be back on track. I am again losing myself.

I discovered recently that I lost 35 pounds in 2-3 months. Cool. But somehow scary. I am now at a stage that I don't like to get fat anymore. And it gets scarier everyday.


As I was about to end this, I received an unexpected message.


"Was I?"


My answer (which I didn't tell that person) : Yes. You were, you are, you will always be.


Good night. Happy Vday everyone. XD

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