Confessions.

1. I have been sulking since I don't know when. I stay in a lot more than I usually do, and I don't enjoy going out as much as I would normally do. I avoid being with people, and I don't enjoy company much anymore. 
2. I really need to talk about what I should be talking about. It is starting to mess everything. 
3. I am not functional anymore. 
4. I miss lunch guy, a lot. I want him to be the first person I start opening up to.
5. I am scared of everything and everyone at the moment. I wish it is just panic attacks or anxiety attacks, but yeah. Much more than that. 
6. I miss my old self. I miss the life I used to live. I may have not lived comfortably before. But hell, I don't live right now anyway. Like what was mentioned during the Grand Feast yesterday, there are dead people, half dead people. I think I am one of them. 
7. Grand Feast yesterday made me think about a lot of things in my life.
8. I am worried about a friend. I know he has been going through a lot of things in his life, and I hope that he is okay. I included him in my prayers yesterday during the Grand Feast.
9. I am lost. Completely, totally. 
10. I wish to talk to my dad about certain things.