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City of Smiles

I've been meaning to post something here, but instead of writing it down and whatnot, everything is staying in my head. Literally and figuratively.

Hello from the City of Smiles.

I just got back from dinner and coffee and dessert with a high school friend I haven't seen in forever and her husband. It's nice to see people from my old life every now and then, and reminds me of good times and how life used to be back then. I really appreciated the effort she and her husband did to accommodate me even in such a short notice. And they're a really lovely couple. We did eat at Bob's, had dinner with their friends here in Bacolod, as there is an event here so some of their friends are actually performers for that event, had one of the best desserts there too, and good lechon, and then had good coffee and talk after that in a hotel nearby.

It's amazing how my out of the office work goes. I don't get a lot of down time since I have a schedule to meet, but, it is amazing how I just get an opportunity every now and then to see and meet people, or do things I won't normally do. Being away from Manila is a good way, not just to destress, but actually to re energize my self and figure things out away from everyone else. Tomorrow, I intend to do things I would enjoy, stay in, have fun on my own, work, destress, relax, take my time and just enjoy the breeze, the sun, the sky, the weather.

Meeting my high school friend earlier, was I think one of the best things that happened during this trip. After Cebu, the craziness and whatnot, I really need a good night out, clean fun, just catching up and eating (which by the way I really enjoyed A LOT tonight, and I can actually die because of food coma today, not even kidding). Been eating tirelessly the whole day, and I don't want to care about the weight I am gaining, because once again, I enjoy what I put in my mouth, and not because I am stressed. It was nice to be with different set of people, my friend, her husband and their friends, met people too, got acquainted. It was quite a lot, but, it was nice. Fun. Hanging out with her made me remember the crowd I am so used to hanging out all these years, and maybe I should stick the crowd I have been so used to.

The past few months have been nothing but shitty and crazy and all sorts in between. To be honest, I should be writing down each and every single detail of my life, but nowadays, time passes by with me just letting everything happen and not actually writing them down. I remember some, but most of them, just got drowned by all other things in my head. Despite the fact that everything has been shitty and crazy, I feel like I am okay. I feel like I am starting to find the balance I have been trying to find. The alcohol I can't remove yet.. but the rest I think I am starting to bit by bit. I still slip, but so far, after that Alabang incident, I know that I'm trying to make better choices for my life. I will try to write more often here, but for now. This is as good as it gets.

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