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It's that hour of the day.

..that I do have random thoughts in my head. 

I kind of like having this blog all to myself without no one judging me or saying mean or bad things about me. Though I know I have given the link to a few people, I would be very surprise if someone even checks this regularly. 

This blog is also a reminder of all my hardships and struggles, my thoughts, my wishes, my dreams, and everything else in between.

Since I have a lot of time to spare, and I don't plan on going home early as to not take a cab home, I decided to post something, even though it may be senseless. 

I have been thinking about a lot of things right now. Not just about my recent heartaches, but about what I would like to do in a short term kind of plan. I am not sure if this is the right time.. but I remember one person saying that there isn't really a right time, it's just going for it and following your heart's desire. I guess I can say that that is where I plan to head, or heading right now. I am very unsure of what will happen next, of what God's plans are, but I would like to at least see what is in store for me. What happened came in as a surprise, in the middle of chaos and commotion both in my head and heart, and maybe, just maybe it is God's way of telling me that there is something in store for me. That I may be lonely and a bit depressed about recent events.. but that should not stop me from trying my best and just making the most out of what I can. 

A lot of people makes me sad nowadays. But the saddest part would probably be the fact that the people that make me sad are the ones that can make me the happiest too. Maybe that is the reason why we feel pain. Because the people who may hurt us, intentional or not, are the ones who can also bring so much joy in our hearts.  
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