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A lot in my head.

So as you have noticed. I have been very emotional these past couple of weeks. And I can't really react to every single thing because I am busy. I still have gazillion of things to do.. but.. I can't because I need rest. Been sick the whole week already and I haven't been better. I hope to see a silver lining soon.

 Been working my ass off and I feel it isn't going anywhere. I have to suck it up until I am able to find a job I really like. I am trying not to settle for less.. but I am also having the desire to do what I really love. 

 Nowadays, therapy has been crossing my mind. How I wish I have a shrink friend so it won't be so costly. I think I need to have therapy in order for me to live and survive. Life has been really rough on me and sometimes I already think of giving it up. That's why I have been thinking that therapy may be necessary for me. 

 I am not saying I am not okay. But I can't say I am. I am somewhere. Lost, I guess. But I have to keep it in, and hold it together. I have a lot of things I don't like about the way my life runs. But. I don't and can't do anything about it if it means losing others or I couldn't give happiness to the people I care about. 

 Maybe all of this are hormones, and stress and lack of sleep and rest. I do hope everythin gets better.. or I hope. That's all there is to this.
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