So they say.

Would you mind if I still loved you? Would you mind if things don't last? Would you mind if I hold onto You so that I won't crash? Morning light, I'm at your door One last time, and no one's there (Nobody, nobody, nobody, no...) Drove all night, just to beat you home Would you mind if I waited? Would you mind if I wait right here? And I really, really, wanna love you And I'm really only yours Even if it don't last forever, I wanna let you know We really had something special, it's hard tryna let it go I'm just being honest, I'm still in the moment Would you mind if I still loved you? Would you mind if things don't last? Would you mind if I hold onto You so that I won't crash? Up all night, can't let go Won't stop trying, need you to know It's worth the fight, if I get back come Hope you don't mind I waited Would you mind if I wait right here? And I really, really, wanna love you And I'm r...

Home by Reese Lansangan Verse I:  Oh my love  Did they tell you  Just how long a time  It took for me to get to you  And when the world  Said it's impossible  Said it's improbable  The chances of me finding you  Pre-chorus:  But nobody knows  How we go  When we're alone  It's like we're home  Chorus:  My bones are safe  And my heart can rest  Knowing it belongs to you  My world is changed  And it's cradled by  The comfort that is you  Ooh  Verse II:  Oh my love  My head is reeling  And I am running out of air  I need to breathe in  I didn't know  That it was possible  To put all that I am  In the palm of your hand  Now we're unstoppable  Pre-chorus:  But nobody knows  How we go  When we're alone  It's like we're home  Bridge:  But nobody knows...

I just thought of making one post for you, pouring it out here and after this, will start to move on already. Meeting you was a surprise, and getting to know you even was much more unexpected. It has been 2 years since I lost Val, and I was still trying to move on from our break up. Weeks before meeting you, Val and I talked, and even if we decided that it was for the best. I think I wouldn't lose her completely because she knew she was still existing in my dreams. But then, I met you and everything changed. Gradually. I still miss her, from time to time, but having you with me and hugging me when I have a bad day, I know it was the right choice of standing by you all these months. It was never easy, opening up to you, getting to know you, meeting you in secret and then going out in dating you. I had to make a lot of choices, I made mistakes, but in the end, I chose to be with you because you made me happy. Despite all the circumstances we keep on going through, I can still say t...

I haven't had the chance to write anything in a really long time.  I guess I'm putting it out here, so that I can let things out of my head.  I'm very good at play pretend and showing that things are okay even though I am hanging on to dear life and things are just bad.  I don't have the patience with anything nowadays and I'm really mad. Like dead mad all the time. I can always scream and shout if I can. But I choose not to talk to people and in the end I tend to be very annoyed and angry and sometimes or most of the time I just sound cranky and a bit to people.  I also don't have the patience nowadays. I don't like waiting, and I am irritated all the time.  I have a lot of things to be angry and annoyed about but I will try not to say anything because after all this is an open blog.  Anyway. How have I been? My therapist asked me this last Saturday. To be honest. I haven't been okay. I am not okay. I just want to burst out crying. I want t...

Everything just went downhill. I never thought in my wildest dreams I would once again see and feel how I did yesterday. I woke up now, decided to text someone and I don't know, I guess told her how shitty the day was, because after I told her to go away, she actually did the whole night. Little does she know that once again, I was testing her on how she would react. But also, I was deeply hurt, like how the good friend decided to think I was such a slut more than a year ago. That's how it felt. I don't know what story I want to type or write out. The one about that girl, or the one that spoiled my day in the first place. All I wanted after what happened yesterday was to see her. That despite everything, I know I have her. But somewhere along the way, she decided to be a dick like how my mom usually is to me. I don't know what to say, or do. All day, I just want to be away from my mother. I just want her gone, out of my life. I know I may not be the best daugh...

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