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To Gian, my ultimate HH head :)

Dearest Gian,

Sayo ko nalang iaaddress tong short blog ko. I felt the same way when I woke up this morning. About your plurk. I'm sure you remember. Like what I said, God has plans. It was the 17th of the month. I am not sure that you remember, but 17 was "our" number. And yesterday, of course was 17. Its been a month and a few days since everything changed. When I got to work, I was so lazy, because I felt sad and blue. But at the end of the day, I realized, I didn't dwell so much on telling people na it's 17, na it's supposed to be our day. Pero, it never happened because of all the circumstances. Now, thinking about it, nalulungkot ako uli. But I know, in God's time, I will wake up, not thinking about him anymore. We may have different reasons why things didn't work out so well.

Like what I posted in my facebook, after all these years I realized it's just not worth it. I got my answer. I thought he was the one, but he was just one of them. After my one to ones a few days ago, God affirmed me of his plans, that in time, things will be better. God listens to all our prayers, and answers to it, in His own way. :)

Thanks Gian, once again, for reminding me that life is beautiful. I have my family, and beautiful friends, to be with. I have you, and YFC-UST to hug and text and call and see whenever I am sad. I have my officemates to hang out with during breaks when I feel alone, I have GS, high school and college friends to be with in spirit, and other friends to chill with and I have a God, who loves me so much. I just need to have faith. I know, I love him still, but in time, if it's God's will, I will let go and move on.

God bless to you Gian. I am just here. Love you!

Regards,
Marge
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