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Waiting for you is so worth it ♥

I'm just at peace right now. Not feeling the sadness, the miseries and everything else in between. For the first time in a long while, I felt free. I felt comfortable from where I am, and not expecting anything. I don't mind being alone and single, because I know God's plans are better than mine. Who knows? I end up being a nun. Wuhoo.

I am so thrilled over God's plans..

And waiting for you, is so worth it :)

Makes my heart hump every time. Patience :)

on the other hand, I am bumming out in the wee hours of the morning. Very very sad. One of exes is leaving to work somewhere. Even though we broke up 2 years ago, we became friends almost a year after the break up. I feel I'm losing one of my bestfriends.. and the only guy who can keep up with every little details, itch and hang-ups I have in my life.







I'm sure at one point, you'll be able to read this. I am bumming out because you're leaving. Seriously. You're the closest to a brother/dad/bestfriend/boyfriend I can have all in one. Sana tumagal kayo ni GF. I am rooting for it. I will pray for you. I will miss you terribly. God bless you. ♥ I love you. Besh. :)

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