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Drag Me To Hell, just dragged me to salvation :)

After this day, I realized one big thing.

Be careful with your decisions.

Then, it just hit me. I went out today, to conquer one of my fears -- horror movies. I am successful to do it, I screamed, shouted, and lastly, laughed. It was hilarious.

Everything is a choice.

And right now, I just realized, I am ready. I am so ready :)

Church with my family and her, movie with her. It just felt so good to feel alive again :)
















I really wanted to go out last night. Pero, I didn't happened. Hence I craved for ice cream. So I went out, even though my bestfriend told me not to. And it felt good, to do something you want, without people having to force you not to, or to force you to do it. To do it with though and choice.

Now, I decided to conquer the fear of horror movies in a movie house. Also, I shoted and screamed all my heart out. It just felt so good, to release everything, and to simply let go of your fears and just scream and shout all the pain, hurt, anger and everything else in between. I felt the rush while watching, it was scary, funny and nakakagulat all at the same time. I felt the blood and rush each shout, each scream and each laugh. It felt so good, to feel the joy, the laugh, the worry free life, and just live the moment.





AFTER THE MOVIE. We realized how good it felt. Hahaha! Even though I am losing my voice. And my throat hurts, all good, and worth watching. :)







And now I am ready. If I fall in love again, no biggie. If I don't no biggie too. I will just enjoy life as it is. I will enjoy being single. I know that times may be rough, I may feel sad or alone at times, but God will find a way. He always does. :)



The reason, why it all ended, and started.










Besty, you might be sleeping. But Thanks! see you next week. Love you. :)

God, you make me fall in love over and over. You just sweep me off my feet :)
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