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Pffft.

I really want to blog a lot of thoughts I have in my head but..

A. I'm too tired from work, or whatever it is I do.

B. I don't know how to put it exactly into words.

Sorry, me labo much.

But right now, my life is spinning, my world is just falling into pieces. I'm just glad I have friends and a God who reminds me on what to do. Honestly, I am really losing hope. I don't understand why things are happening. I may say this often, that I am depressed, and that I feel so sad and all, but seriously, I just want to say all those things, so I can let everything go. Even though it's so freakingly hard, I know everything will fall into place.

Details soon.

I need tons of prayers. About work, family, and the pain I am going through, and everything else in between.

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