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The year that was. (2013 edition)

This was supposed to be done like more than a week ago, but since I can’t get my lazy fat ass to do anything when I am home, I might as well do it while I am here sitting at work, nothing much to do. 

I cannot say that 2013 was a bad year for me, but I can’t say otherwise either. 2013 had its strong ups and downs, and I am still thankful for everything despite all the hardships I had to go through. 

There would probably four highlights of my year.

I finally saw Shinhwa. Thanks to a few people, I finally saw them in the flesh. It was one trip I will never forget, since I saw Shinhwa, and it was the first time I went to a solo trip. Met a few people, but nonetheless, it was a solo trip, ticked off my bucket list already. Each one of them has their own personal charm and that as a group they are indeed legends in their own right. Seeing them on their 15th year was pretty special and awesome too!

I finally saw CN Blue, upclose and also in a concert. I saw Yonghwa’s everlasting frizzy hair while fixing his ever beloved gift of a microhpne stand from one of his fanclubs. It was also an experience I will never forget as I have tried events and stuff but I don’t think it is for me. I won’t even do it for a fee. Hahaha. But it also marked that milestone that I have seen all my bias groups(SS501, Big Bang, Shinhwa and CN Blue). I don’t think I will be going to places again to see any one of them anytime soon. (I hope I don’t eat my word on this).

I got my heart shattered this year. Yet again. After 3 and a half years. Let’s not go too much into details as I don’t know that much myself. But I decided not to think about it anymore as much as I can, and decided not to know intentionally the reasons why. The other party isn’t ready, and may never be ready so I have given up that hope of understanding. Though, I am just a human and there are days I still think about it, but dwelling too much is something I am trying not to do this 2014. I will lie if I say I don’t miss the person or I have moved on or let go already. But, I am much better. I still love and miss but I also surprise myself with the gravity of such. I hope one day it comes to a point that I don’t get affected as much as I am, and that, I don’t feel pain anymore or sadness.

Lastly, I finally have moved on in terms of career. Decided to quit my old job, and moved on to a new one I have always wanted to try. Been here almost a month already and so far things have been okay. It isn’t as busy, actually it is super lax and tons of downtime, but I am learning so much, and meeting new people too. The business is also very interesting as people switch to different things whenever they can. Before I moved, this was actually my dream job. And now I am here, I have finally ticked this one off my bucket list. Will have to go and find a new dream/goal which hopefully I can attain again in a few years or so. Pay isn’t as good, but experience wise, I feel this is something good as I will have to deal with my money issues with frugality and much thought and care. I hope that by the end of this year. I will be wise with money too, since I am not very good with expenses and money.

For 2014. I look forward to so many things and experiences with the job mostly, but also, I look forward to the self discovery I will take as I am about to be independent for a couple of months. I am not sure how to handle it, but I look forward to gaining experiences, learning from mistakes, and standing up after a big blow or a fall. Also, I have started to gain back my old relationship with God, and I feel that this is something I should also work on for 2014. 2014 may be more frugal year for me, maybe no trips for me, but I know that God has something in store for me this year. Technically I will be having trips, since my job requires field work (which I am seriously excited about), and will learn how to backpack and be frugal with travels too. J

Overall, 2013 isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It maybe gave me one of the biggest blows, but God still showered me with something I will forever be grateful for. J


Happy new year everyone! Wishing everyone a fulfilling and meaningful year ahead of you. Let us learn to be grateful and thankful, and maybe, pay it forward too. 
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