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Update.

So what's up everyone? 

Merry Christmas to everyone. Just had the craziest month in a while. From last few weeks at work, to a vacation, to last few days at work, to a new job, to wrapping gifts and spending time with family. 

It's surprising that the month just passed without me realizing it and now I think I should post and prepare my year end post already. 2013 was just a lot to handle for me. 

How has everything been? Finally! Pushed my Singapore trip through already. It was 6 days of pure bliss and craziness,  realizations and good times. A few annoying moments but nonetheless everything was all good. Saw my crush with her girlfriend, and told him I was reallt happy for him. :) shopped Christmas gifts for everyone, well, family, and got a gift from friends too. Chocolates galoreeeee. Got to taste my fave chocolate again. Too happy ♡ Singapore is indeed a happy place, but my ex doesn't really like that place as it reminds her of so many bad memories, I guess. 

The last few weeks at work was crazy as well. And I was honestly too lazy already. I tried my best to finish what I can and in the end I think I somehow pulled through. I don't miss work at all. I mean the old job. Though my body isn't really used to enough rest and sleep, but I mean I am really okay with it. I kinda miss knowing that a few friends were just a few steps away whenever I need a break or someone to talk to, but its all good. It's part of life. 

Started the new job last week. And it was culture shock in a lot of ways. From knowing that I do have a senior post, from trying to get to know everyone and trying to get along.. from getting used to commuting in the morning during rush hour. And also getting used to the normal life. I admit, I am surprised at myself for keeping up qith everyone's friendliness since I am not the type. But I sort of start to feel a little comfortable even if it has been a week only. Got to meet the people I would work with,  and met people from the other teams.. and prospect? Yes. Haha. Have a tiny bit of crush on the side too. Sssgg. Do not tell anyone. Haha. But yeah. I have to get used to so many things, especially the work. Haven't started training formally yet, but I have so much to learn. From how to do my job, to how to get to field work, from being able to interact with everyone, and how does the routine of the job go. The job is very laidback, as to what I have been used to, so I find time to appreciate or even look into life as it is now. I am also trying to come up with a plan on how to include exercise and masses within the week since I work on a regular shift and I dont want to commit mistakes at the moment. I really do have a lot to learn and I am hoping and praying hard that this opportunity was the right thing for me. So far, I have not regretted leaving. And I do like the atmosphere of the new job. But let's see. 

I also learned that I have to be able to learn fast since I will already go on field next month. It really scares me and at the same time, I am excited with what it has to offer me. 

How is my heart? Surprisingly okay. I didn't shed a tear with benjax' wedding.. didn't expect it that way. I thought I will cry and do self pity and all, but God reaffirmed me that I made the right choice. I also got in contact with an ex, and I realized he hasn't changed. He still pry so much like he did back in the day. Maybe I should unfriend him again. Haha! What else, val, I mean, I still miss her, but not like I used to, I still feel attached at times, but, I realized that until I find the guts to stop talking to her, I will always have that sort of attachment.  I don't think I am ready. Though, at times, I feel I should. I want to know though where she wants me in her life because at times I think I can be deceived with what she shows and what she makes me feel or how she says she feels, something like that. But I realized I am fine already more or less, especially with the fact that we are not together anymore.  I would like to try dating in 2014, and see if God has someone He prepared for me. Though I am not in a hurry and though I think I will still be okay if I grow old not getting married or whatever. I don't really mind. I don't know if I am also closing doors for val already, or maybe I am just waiting in silence. But nonetheless, I am surprised with where I am in my life. 

One more week and it is 2014. I am excited. Scared. Hopeful. And praying. 
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